Have you ever experienced extreme annoyance? I have. I'm the most non-accurate expressive of my feelings kind of person there is. What I mean by that is that my facial expression tends to not match my true feelings. I don't know what it is. If I'm extremely annoyed at someone, my facial expression demonstrates the exact opposite of what I'm feeling. So if someone asks me, "Can you do this for me again?" I say, "SURE!!!!!" with a huge smile on my face, while inside I'm thinking, "Gr, that's really annoying."
So can you imagine how I feel in one day when 18 kids need my attention constantly? Sometimes I do feel fake. It's really bad. If a kid comes up and shares the most interesting fact about their soccer game or some cute trick that their dog can do, I just sit there and say "No way!!! Really??? Wow, that's somethin'!" While inside, I'm sometimes listing off about ten million more important things I need to do at the moment, like make copies for the next class or correct papers, etc. How horrible.
Anyways, I'm trying to work on that. Letting my body express what I'm feeling on the inside.
A friend once told us that your actions should display your beliefs. He said that when he's annoyed at someone, he'll do the opposite of what he feels, like show love to that person, even if it's not what he feels. I agree with this philosophy, and that's why sometimes my expressions betray my emotions. But I guess there's a fine line of being being fake, being polite, and staying true to your beliefs. I don't know exactly what that line is (never seen it before, in fact, just made it up right now), but basically I'm trying to be balanced.
Thank you very much for listening, and have a nice day.