I guess I should sort of introduce myself. My name is Jieun Park. "Ji" means will and "eun" means grace. So my middle name is Grace. Wouldn't it have been funny if my mom decided my American name should be WillGrace? Jieun WillGrace Park. Wait, I'm confused about this whole journal on the web business. Only one person knows, well, about two people know that I have a journal on my webpage, so I assume that only I and one or two other people read this. So, if that's the case, then I don't have to introduce myself. Okay, so I'll write as if I'm just writing to someone I know. Okay... Ah! But I can't. It's too weird. Maybe I should stop. Maybe I should stop while I'm ahead. What if I get addicted to this? If Connie Chang updates her thoughts one more time, then I'll update mine again. It's dependent on her. Alrighty then.

I think I'm a simple person. Simple mind, simple clothes, simple words, and simple faith. I consider myself an intelligent person, but I have simple intelligence. Like, I don't know how I got into Stanford with my lame test scores and all. But since I'm here, I accept it. Some people may think that I am simple-minded, like stupid or something, but I like to think of it as simply-minded. Meaning, I don't like to complicate things. Just see things simply. My clothes are simple. Jeans, gray shirt, and sweatshirt. Freshman year I had this whole thing about trying to change what I should wear. Sabrina Fang, my roommate then, saw me trying on different outfits that just weren't me. But I have come to accept that about myself. But that's not to say that if I got clothes as a gift that's not jeans, gray shirt, or sweatshirt I wouldn't wear it. Of course I would wear the gift. I don't like using SAT words. In fact, I don't know half the meanings of SAT words. I just think that using those words makes people sound facetious. Too hackneyed, you know? I'm the lackadaisical type of person that likes to use simple words. I think the most important usage of words is to communicate with another person. So, as long as you can use words to communicate with people, you're fine. That's why I don't feel guilty about learning many languages. Some people say you should concentrate on one foreign language and learn it to the max instead of spreading yourself out so thin. But for me, it's like, why do I want to learn it to the max? I don't even know English to the max, so why even bother with other languages? But if you can learn several languages enough so that you can communicate with people and relay important messages to them (like the gospel), then I think that's enough. I learn languages so that I can love people. Loving God and loving people makes up the essence of my faith. In some ways I lack because I won't be able to explain some theological doctrines and concepts to you. I think I'm just programmed by God not to think so much about theology. But that's not to say that I never think about theology. I think about God and what His Word says, but I don't consider that being theological. Maybe it's the word that I have a problem with. I don't know. All I know is that I don't like to get into theological debates, and I hardly ever do, because that's not how I share my faith. Debates never get you anywhere, I feel. You can debate me if you want, but there's no use.

Okay, let me take a step back. I have to admit, writing a journal for the whole world to see (potentially) is making me nervous. While I was writing these two paragraphs, I actually edited myself because I was afraid of what the reader would think of me. I mean, editing something due to appropriateness is one thing, but to edit out of fear of what people would think? I'm such a human.

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