Danny ChaiOne more note about Robotech, the Macross saga. The story is really a soap opera with aliens, robots and violence. In fact, in a lot of ways it’s a Korean drama: it has a primary love triangle and two secondary ones – a love triangle triangle. It even flirts with incestous themes, another weirdo K-drama thing. It actually makes me want to watch a K-drama. I mentioned this to Arthur and he said, “Jieun wins.”
I spent Saturday afternoon watching the Kim boys and it reminded me again why I love California. Just a perfect day spent at the park. We all complained about the heat wave a while back, but only because it was so unusual. Many of us don’t have AC because we almost never need it. Since then, it’s pretty much been perfect low to mid-80s. I love California.
It made me happy also because while we watched an episode of Spider-Man and his Amazing Friends and played a little retro Atari, they got bored pretty quickly and had a lot more fun at the park. Kids are meant to run around outside during the summer. Says the guy who spent his childhood summers watching 10 hours of TV a day. But yeah, it was nice that they liked being outside, and nice for me to be outside myself.
I had a great time because I love watching kids play, it just fascinates me. I have big problems with too much freedom; I need structure for my time. Like, when we have going away get-togethers for people and there’s no structure to it, I get exceedingly uncomfortable. Or any formal group gathering, for that matter. I want some sort of direction or structure to the time, it’s just how I am.
Kids aren’t like that – they can just play, and that fascinates me and makes me jealous. They have an endless capacity for amusement and creativity. I miss that. We spent quite a bit of time on the playground traveling through space and encountering aliens, then quickly morphed into a ship with sharks. S played on the swings for about 45 minutes straight while B urgently moved sand from one area to another. I’ve lost a great deal of my creative spirit through the years, so to experience that vicariously through kids is refreshing.
I think also that my instincts with boys are a lot more developed than with girls. I feel like with boys, the stuff you have to deal with, like boundaries, responsibility, consequence, are largely physical, which to me is relatively straightforward. Maybe I’m wrong about this. But with girls, it seems like the same types of issues are more emotional, which is more cryptic to me. We’ll see what happens with Abby, but yeah, I think my track record is a lot better with boys than girls. It’s ridiculous the number of girls at chuch I’ve made cry.