I’m actually getting worried (with some good reason) that I’m becoming the creepy guy to the kids at church. I’m sure you had people like that in your childhood, adults who just gave you the heebie-jeebies. Young and Dong are funcles; I’m more like disturbuncle or creepuncle. Last night Cindy was watching my efforts with Ashley and *she* was getting creeped out. Not good times. Maybe I should just cut my losses and forget gaining kids’ affection, just ignore them and leave them to Jieun.
Joonho was saying that with kids, for them to like you, you need to go all out, no abandon. I’ve kind of written about this before, but that gets to the heart of who I am. I don’t think I’ve ever in my life given myself all out with no abandon to anything. With every single thing I’ve ever done I’ve always left myself a safety, some kind of backup or something in case things didn’t work out. Even spiritually, complete abandon is something I’m still striving for, not yet fully achieved. So yeah, giving myself up completely to anything, even just playing with kids, is not something that comes easily for me.