I don’t think I’m a natural parent. I’ve taken a few weeks off after Joshua was born, and most of my time is spent with Abby. It totally stresses me out. I just don’t know how to occupy her time. We let her watch one 30 minute TV show a day. Besides that, I have no idea what to do with her. Maybe we don’t have enough toys. But I find myself just frantically trying to fill her waking hours with something, just counting the minutes that she’s awake.
That’s pretty terrible, right? It’s not that I don’t treasure the time I have with her; I do. I just don’t know what to do and the time seems to stretch on forever. I rotate between certain things – park (my go to), library, random outside walks. But those aren’t enough to fill up all the time.
The strange thing is, if we ever have to go anywhere, it takes *forever* to get ready, and we’re perpetually late. There’s never enough time to get ready.
That contrast perplexes me. Most of the day, there’s endless time, but when we have to get ready to go somewhere, there’s no time at all. I’ve often had the thought that I should just get ready to take the family to 3 places a day, then the day would just fly by. But that has its own set of issues.